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Man.

I am recording a song tomorrow. Like singing and everything. I am terrified out of my mind.Why you ask? Well because I have never let anyone hear my songs. I usually throw them out because I think they're crap. And two because I suck at singing.

I think that my suckage its mainly because I have no confidence I my voice. And I don't song much so I haven't practiced my singing at all. Maybe this will start a fire and I will slowly get better. i hope so. friends, please encourage me to sing and practice.

Anyways, the song I wrote is about jesus calling us home and living in us. It's something that gives me peace so why not write about it? Quaid helped me alot with it. He's a great writer and not many people know it. I'm honored to co write with him.

I'm not quite sure how I want the overall song to sound like, either an a acoustic-y messy open type of warm old school approach or a post rock thing. I'm kinda leaning towards the first cause I know that if my singing if just bad, ill add some delay to an electric guitar and hide behind that. I wanna do what would sound best though. I'm pretty sure there will be a slide part though, but I think I'm gonna get chad to do it. He's the best there is. Period. Anyways. Ill post more tomorrow and tell how it goes. Ill put pics or something up on twitter tomorrow too. Night.

Jesus iz faithful

Man, oh, man

you know, its one of my greatest dreams to get married one day and to be in love, but oddly enough I find more comfort alone than with people anymore. I read blue like jazz my don miller and he wrote in one chapter that he wanted to meet a girl that made him feel alone. At least I think it was miller...anyways I feel the exact same.

I've been with girls that talk and are great at making life unboring. I've also dated a girl that wanted med to talk to her. She wanted me to talk about my feeling and know what I was thinking about all the time. That was a turn off.

She didn't mean it but I dont have much to say. In fact, I don't have anything at all to say. I hate talking. Texting too. I wanna meet a girl who wants to make me bored and not busy. maybe then I wouldn't flake out so quick.

Life is confusing.

Badrizzle

Its been a while.

I don't really know where to start. So lets go with

Feelings. I used to get upset when I first started the whole charismatic church thing. People prayed they fall down shake cry and they are the ones close to god. I never felt anything. Everything seemed like I was the only sinner and that I needed to get more free to have great experiences with god.

Wrong, sense when are we entitled to have feelings? when did god say that my presence its like drugs. He just said there was peace. That and follow me. Get real church, its not about us. Its about jesus, the cross and saving sinners.

In fact, instead if getting jesus high and getting on our knees and serving maybe our churchs would grow with new believers.

Long time no blog

Yeah yeah I know. I haven't blogged lately. I've been busy. I've been up and down. I've tried hard at a few things and I've failed.

You know that saying absence makes the heart grow fonder? Well it did, and I wish it hadn't. The past week has been both simple and super confusing, happy and heart breaking. I wish I would have made better choices in my life already. I hope the next few years go better and get me somewhere and someone. I hope.

Anyways, jesus is still good and deserving of praise and honor. Even if I don't feel anything it wasn't to admit it.

Thank you for saving my life everyday and bring there when I need you. You are better than girl.thanks

Long time no blog

Yeah yeah I know. I haven't blogged lately. I've been busy. I've been up and down. I've tried hard at a few things and I've failed.

You know that saying absence makes the heart grow fonder? Well it did, and I wish it hadn't. The past week has been both simple and super confusing, happy and heart breaking. I wish I would have made better choices in my life already. I hope the next few years go better and get me somewhere and someone. I hope.

Anyways, jesus is still good and deserving of praise and honor. Even if I don't feel anything it wasn't to admit it.

Thank you for saving my life everyday and bring there when I need you. You are better than girl.thanks