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life hasn't changed any. i'm marking days off my life and i haven't done anything lately. but its ok. the lord is still doing  work in me and i couldn't be more excited.

i'm actually writing cause i have some updates.

the first is im writing. i made a list of various topics and i'm writing on them. maybe to give some insights . when i finish i'll put them up. i'm also got some songs brewing, but you know how that goes. i usually trash them. but i'm gonna give you a line so you at least get that.

"i hope the artists never find the color of your eyes, cause they'd waste them on their beautiful autumn skies."

yep. thats about a girl i know. her eyes are breathtaking.

the second update is me and chad are going to charleston this weekend. party party party. should be fun. more updates to come.

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life has been wild. too wild.

so i lost it for about a month but as always, i fell into the presence of the lord somehow. i was acting like an idiot and lost my mind. i gave into my fleshly desires and really fell away from the lord. first time i've ever really lived like that. i'm glad i had an encounter. it was the first one i have had in long, long time. it happened at a prayer meeting and i can't quite explain what happened but i'll try.

i was laying in the floor when the conviction of the lord came upon me. i wept and groaned for hours. during this time, i felt like i was sinking into the floor and i could not physically breathe, so much that i couldn't not form words to pray. never in my life have a had a physical encounter with the lord like that. it was very much a terrifying experience. i learned that God doesn't care about your beliefs, he cares about your heart and what you are and aren't putting in it.

it took and encounter for me, and as a father to the younger kids in our youth group, that is what i'm asking the father. me and blake are devoting our lives to fathering these kids and we don't know what to ask. so i've been using that since its what i needed. it just takes one encounter, one real moment with jesus that will grasp your attention. what they do with that is their own responsibility. i know the last real encounter i had i ran as far from charismatic christianity as i could. hopefully tonight i'll get to pray and speak into some one and that we'll see signs wonders and miracles. lord knows we need them

i know you're wondering so i'll just say it. me and paige broke up, but i'm over it.

also i'm getting a loan tomorrow for an amp.

also i feel cleaner and more christ like than i ever have. i still fail of course but im seeking him more than ever and he's doing a mighty work in me.

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life is quiet, live it loud

got back from seeing paige yesterday. i actually went to her town and stayed all weekend. very beautiful area. lots of mountains and woods. i love places like that. its breathtaking to sit and watch the sunset over a lake surrounded by mountains. the colors were incredible. didn't want to take a picture. there isn't enough quality in any camera to match the same beauty i was beholding. truly one of the most awesome sights i've ever seen. i was in that atmosphere and with my lovely girlfriend, but all that crossed my mind was christ. the sunset was purple like his bruises. the lake reflected red like his last drop of blood that was shed. the sky above was dark  and lonely like my life before him.

after the sky calmed down and night set in the stars began to shine as i imagined my savior did after his last breath before burial.i'm sure somewhere nearby a storm rolled in and someone who was unaware saw that sunset and noticed something different. i picture someone my age walking through the woods and wondered about life. i'm sure he felt an absence in his heart because he didn't know why his life was as dark and lonely as the forest he was in. and in that moment i see him looking up at the stars and seeing the stars and just knowing someone was gazing teary eyed at him and smiling, because he was going to make it. and not just make it but find his way through. i'm sure he thought that God was among the stars.

maybe i'm just making stuff up but thats how i felt that night. and i'm just some ordinary guy, so i'm sure there was some ordinary guy 2000 years ago. yes, i'm writing to tell a story but not just any story. this story is about how life gets quiet and still and us humans often get lost in the minimal. thats how i feel. in times like now i feel like a guitarist who is unsure of himself. he's got great potential but he's too afraid to play because what he has might not fit the song or he might not be able to play what he's dreaming of. i've been that guitarist. the only way to beat that timidity is to turn up and play LOUD. thats right. loud.

my advice to any one reading this is to get loud. even if you can't hear. turn up what you're doing and get heard. take whats inside and let it out. as sloppy or and unfit as it seems. some people hate it, but most will like it. and God wants you to be proud of what you got.

oh and when the band gets that way and you feel like that. its because there needs to be a melody or solo arise. you prolly have it. when life gets quiet like that night did two thousand years ago and you don't know where life is going, breathe deep cause its your time to let out what you know or whats on your heart. if you can do that when all hope is gone and dead in a grave, true courage steps in and something beautiful happens.

i see that person getting back to town after his walk and him telling a friend or a loved one that he needs more. and the other end of the conversation says that they don't know what he's talking about. the young adventurer gets somewhat discouraged but he catches word of what happened that night on calvary. he sets out to find out more and eventually find christ. he believes and commits to that savior. he then slowly becomes a paul or peter. a son of the most high.

thats where i'm at. i'm taking my deep breath and taking the solo. i'm doing what the lord told me to do and i'm using what the lord gave me and he's gonna be so proud.

i know this is a long post but i've been lazy with the blog.

some things i'm stoked about

-new song about mary of bethany i'm writing

-all the bright lights is recording a new song and possibly a new record. those guys just get what music is and how its supposed to be played

-fall

-acoustic music

-possibly going into biology

-climbing

-travel

- #ravinesandchasms (my band)

cya later

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uh huh

its been a crappy week...work wise. long days in the hot muggy weather. i've got thousands of mosquito all over my body but other than work life is grand. sunday was a beautiful. the weather breathed of fall. words cannot express how wonderful it felt. me and ole chad went climbing and had alot of fun. its nice to get away and spend time outside. florence alabama is truly the most beautiful city in the world.

last night i went to cliff haven for church. i didn't have to play or anything. the worship was great. God showed up and came on strong. just when i thought i was doing great in my life God showed me he needed much more from me. thats usually how it goes.never get comfortable cause you won't stay there long.

oh and i'm spending the weekend with paige and her family. gonna be fun. hopefully i'll get to do some exploring around there. i've heard that that area of alabama is beautiful and that there is some 'splorin to do

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all's good in my world. been working hard and loving harder.i've got nothing real to say but i want to keep this thing updated. i've been writing some good music. stuff i'm really proud of and stuff i'd rather play and sing than any other song out there. thats how i think you can tell if you're a good writer. if you like to play your stuff more than anybody else's. i went and saw paige friday. she's great and i love being with her. it stinks that she lives so far away, but everytime i do get to see her, its special and magical. i wouldn't change a thing in my life. well maybe the two hour distance

jesus is good as usual. my christian walk has seemed kinda slow. things that used to seem big don't anymore. i think that means its my time to go more intimate with him. not a bad problem to have actually. i just want and long for more of him. what used to cut it doesn't anymore.

btw, you should listen to andy mckee and hammock. its what i'm feeling right now. you should also go climb. its fun and an experience. you study the rock and try everything to get to the top and when you feel its impossible, you'll succeed very soon. its spiritual for me. god's on that rock as much is he's in a guitar, or a girl, or a walk. he'll see you through and enjoy life with you. he's been so good. he's looking to fellowship with you.

love you guys,
jordan

i saw you running

i've been great lately. thanks for asking. i've also been listening to all the bright lights very, very loud here lately. fun jams. i like listening to them when i'm in love. btw, i'm in love with this girl. she feels the same way. thats why shes my girlfriend.

not gonna be writing about spiritual stuff this time, but i will update you on whats going on in my life and some future plans.

this is paige. i plan on writing tons of great songs about her.i also am gonna start a post rock band. or a instrumental rock and roll band. i wanna write fun songs about her and god and stuff and play them as loud as i can.

i wanna start a business. just a way to start making good money. i'm gonna find a need and fill it.

the lord is blessing me so much here lately. i've got to play guitar alot and i plan on doing that more.thats my first love.

i think i'm gonna go back to the ark. i visited there this morning and worship was thick and incredible. i miss being in a place like that and playing in a band like that. the word was also good. on time and fiery,

i've been rock climbing some. about to start more in the fall.

i love the fall. its such a warm, homey time of year. i love the colors of the leaves and the chill in the air. i think i'll write songs about that too.

its about time for a new amp too.

anyways, i love you guys.

i promise to update very soon.

People.

I was chillin at the beach thinking tonight and I realized I haven't blogged in a long long time. I'm very sorry. Nothing new has changed really.but I've met alot of people here lately so,

Let's talk about people. I met a guy on the beach yesterday. dale was his name. He moved to the beach to do construction. actually he did construction there so he could be at the beach. Smart guy. He randomly started talking to me about life like he knew what I was thinking. He said, man don't worry about people man. If they are busy judging you then they've got their mind off the beach and they don't know (naughty word). Just do what you love, go where it's beautiful, and enjoy what you have.

I'm pretty sure he was drunk but I think he knew what he was talking about. He actually lived what he believed. His dreams weren't dreams, they were reality. I think people we often deem as crazy ste the people who actually have things going right. The crazy people are us who think our dreams will just find us. More to come later. Bigg
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