Tired

Still at the hospital at night. awesome. I'm still exhausted, stressed, and sick. I wonder why? Prolly cause there's no peace unless its with jesus. I'm not so sure he's in this decision. I'm pretty sure working nights for minimum wage isn't the more abundant life for ole jwig.

Anyways, I'm done being a baby. Lets talk about jesus. He's kept me alive the past few months. He's kept me warm and kept me fed. I'm so thankful for that. I don't feel so good. My head hurts I'm stressed and I have no peace, but he still sustains me.that moves me. When peter took his eyes off jesus and started to sink jesus saved him. But peter still got soaked. Someones we get mad when we get wet when we're in sin, but we should be thankful we still have life.

I'm wanting to do some mission stuff on my off semester. But I'm off. Ill try to write more thursday or friday if time permits.

Exhaustion

In the place of suffering, there's a God worth worshipping.
Those are some of the truest words I've ever heard before. They calm me down when I'm aggravated or overwelmed. Those words are a promise to me. When crap happens, great worship is available. Times when we're wrong aren't fun, but that's when God can soothe and heal a broken spirit. Nothing better than that old familiar feeling of God whispering in your ear and telling you he's there and he's going to make it better.

Here lately my spirits been pretty broken. Working nights was a bad idea. I love the work, but I can't sleep anymore. I guess I lost my peace somewhere in august. Haven't found it yet either. I'm giving up this shift. I have to. I need to rest and I need to play guitar. I'm going to take a semester off so I can pray and see what I need to do with my life. I'm gonna play alot of guitar too. Hopefully me and ole chad will do a good bit of writing and show florence what real guitar music is. We'll show em jesus too. That's a promise.

in the fifties

Its possible to look at my facebook or twitter and one can looks at everything and never notice that I'm a believer. I don't know why, but its prolly cause my status updates are usually about dumb stuff.

Anyways I love jesus.

I got such a blessing tonight at church. I played guitar and my mom came to watch. Its was such a sweet spirited night. We we're playing one song and while we were changing songs the church started singing we exalt thee. Without us leading. For the first time in my life, I was in a service completely unhindered by man. God had his way and we didn't even have to start the song it just felt good.

It felt like home.

I love the word home. Home to me means somewhere you go to eat without charge. Its somewhere were there's fresh laundry. A place with a warm shower and an open hug. Its a place where I can be myself and without worry of disappointment or embarrassment.

That's what the lords presence felt like tonight. I wanted to eat in it.sleep in it.maybe take a shower in it? Lol you get my point.

What I'm saying is tonight was work all the pain of last night. I knew it would be. The lord is faithful. Believe in him for everything. Daddy will take care of you when you're home.

Lets talk about jesus

He never went to seminary. he didn't write a get money get paid christian book. I don't think he ever prayed for someone and made them fall and shake. He didn't have an awesome worship team in his church. He didn't have a fancy logo for his mission trip or youth bowling outing. He didn't attack the government or try to reform it. He didn't have business meetings at church. He didn't do much actually.

I think that people who say they hate jesus world prolly hang out with him of he were son of God in flesh right now instead of 2000 years ago. He doesn't do much of what the church does now. I'm not attacking any churchs. I love church. go to church.

I just wanna refresh those old sunday school thoughts of jesus. He loves the little children. He heals. He feeds. He took care of widows and he met needs. I love that about him.

A need is something that if not met, life ends. What's a need then? Water. Food. Warmth. Love. That's all I can think of. Time and time again in. scripture he looks past everything and meets needs. The church does alot of great things. Lets keep it up. As long as we're doing those things we're christ like.

And once we do those for things, I believe that we can start walking in his savior shoes and lead some hearts that have been fed, watered, and clothed to jesus.

Think about jesus today

Tuna

Yeah. Blog time.

I'm working as usual, but I've only got three more days then I'm off for seven days. Ive got some fun things planned.

Ive actually been doing some writing and I think I'm gonna but together a band. And yes. I'm gonna do the singing. I have no idea what this little project will sound like. Hopefully good lol. But for real. I've got a few folky-ish love songs and a few covers id like to do. Just some fun stuff I've been singing.

No "worship" songs really, but I'm sure they'll come. As for now I'm just gonna pay fun songs and try my hardest to write creative songs that are enjoyable and fun to sing. I've got my mind already on a few people I would like to join me, but nothing concrete. If you would like to play or help write songs, call or text me. My number is stupidly on facebook.

This is gonna be a big hard step for me. I'm very self conscious about my singing and even more about my lyric writing. So friends keep me encouraged and remind me that I'm trying this. This is where my heart is and I want my dreams and desires to come true.

Yep. I will do a beiber cover. You can count on it.